Words Are Reflections In A Different Way

mood:ok
listening to:That's What You Get,Hallelujah,Pressure-Paramore

hey,

well,things have been ok,i guess?i went for my scholarship interview yesterday.yes,i got shortlisted but i think this is like only the 1st interview.there may be another interview if i do get shortlisted again.praying hard.i've been doin sum thinking and i think that i tend to think with my heart instead of my head.i'm stubborn.anybody who knows me would know that fact bout me pretty well.i have this feeling to just get my 18th and goin into col over with.i noe a lot of ppl would tell me to treasure those moments but really honestly,i just want time to go faster.anywayz,me and that person is all well.well,take care.love you all.xoxo.

It's All Gonna Be A-Ok,A-Ok

mood:bit better
listening to:The Best Years Of Our Lives-The Black List Club

hey,

things would get better.that's my principle for now.well,i dun even noe when i will be really free.anyways,if u get tired of seeing my blog with no new updates,just click on the links on the rite side of the screen k?love you all,xoxo.

The Pieces Of My Heart Are Missing You

mood:pretty emotional
listening to:The Scientist,Fall To Pieces,When You're Gone-Avril Lavigne

hey,

i'm feeling numb.not like my body is numb or anythin but just feelin that way.i'm feelin pissed as well.i just wish sumtimes i dun care at all if u get wat i mean.some things are alrite,others unsure and sum r just plainly not goin well.i dun really wanna tok bout the things that ain't goin well.it hurts to hurt a person if in turn,u r hurtin urself as well.i've been really bz.when i'm a bit more free and not so emotional,i will try to make a proper update.for now,bye.xoxo.

Words Are Random If You Want Them To Be

mood:Alrite but a bit tired...
listening to:random songs by Jay Chou

hey,

me and J have to an agreement.i will wait for him to be done with skool then we get together officially but in the meantime,we shall stay committed to each other.one good thing that came out of this is that he's actually studying or at least trying to.i handed in my scholarship application d.i can hear sum of you ppl saying 'finally!!!' hahaha.well,i got some pics today.


my new haircut.not very the obvious though...


a lil sumthin J gave me last Sunday.he's so sweet,he wanted to get chocs for me but his daddy dun let so he got this for me.he was so sweet that i didn't really have the heart to kinda tell him he got the wrong type.this is the lozenges type and i usually eat the sweet type wan.he's just too nice and good to me.


i'm in love with cupcakes from The Apartment!!!

well,that's all for today.i'm missing him.well,take care.love you all.xoxo.

Words Are Just Another Way Of Hiding Your Emotions

mood:upset and hurt
listening to:The Scientist by Avril Lavigne,Realize by Colbie Caillat,Wo Bu Pei,Bu Neng Shou De Mi Mi by Jay Chou


hey,

bad news.mummy found out bout me and J and it was ironically through this blog.i've been forced to break up with him against my will.i dunno how is he gonna react since he's already asleep by the time i msged him.i will wait for him till he's over with skool.that's how committed i am towards this relationship.i hope he waits for me too.you may not believe this but i do love him.i was crying so badly until i called Jess up to just talk.she calmed me down after almost an hour of crying.i was crying even when i was on the phone with her.i love Jess,she's just always seem to be there for me.if you ask me y i'm up this l8,one thing,i'm upset and 2nd,i have to fill up the bloody scholarship form which i dun even have the heart to do it now.J made me wanna be a better person and a good gf.i noe it sounds absurd lar.sigh.frankly speaking,for me now,not caring hurts less than caring.on a better note,i had a haircut today.its so Victoria Beckham-like except i'm not blond and my hair is a lil bit shorter.i wish better days would come.i'm starting to miss him d.i love him.love you all.take care,xoxo.

Tired,Tired,Tired And Did I Mention That I Am Tired?

mood:tired...
listening to:daddy's Eagles DVD playing on the TV.

i had a very tiring day today.i got woken up early by J.i slept bout 2 plus am last nite and he woke me up bout 9 sumthin am!!!but nvmlar.anywayz,i went to Nex-Gen today then danced for service.i was very hungry and sleepy during the preaching.i was nearly nodding off and i had gastric pain summore.tomolo, i have two more services to play then go for form 3 class reunion and hopefully get to take a nap after that.me and J are alrite.we r taking things slow but its ok.i got sorta an idea for my essay d,i will probably do it tomolo.i miss Juss all of a sudden.i feel like chatting with her.well,i gotta wait till she's on9 or back here then can have a very long chat.well,take care.love you all.xoxo.

Happy,Smiley,Changed My Mind

mood:happy,smiley,tired and not tired at the same time
listening to:Jian Dan Ai by Jay Chou


hey,

remember my last post?well,i kinda changed my mind.i thought about it again and decided y not take a chance?after all,i dun really have anythin to lose.sure,he's younger but he's pretty mature for his age.J is also sweet,nice,caring and a can take care of ppl type of guy.so fyi to guys,i'm off-limits at the moment.we are just gonna take it slow and see how it goes.he makes me smile.well,on another note,April and May is gonna be busy for me.got loads of stuff to do.anywayz,i kinda got a lil bit of inspiration for my essay d.need time to write it down.well,brain juice not working to type out anythin.erm,i'm craving for cupcakes and Starbucks.i must go for a 'yum cha' session with Secret soon since i haven't catch up with him in awhile.well,my un-singleness is not really known to my fam yet.i respect his wish bout not letting his parents noe so bout mine,c how lar.he's ok with wateva i wanna do but it just so happens,my parents noe his mum,so like thatloh.anywayz,i between tired and not tired.love you all,take care,xoxo.

Made Up My Mind

mood:hungry...
listening to:'That's What You Get' by Paramore and 'Always All Ways (Apologies,Glances and Messed Up Chances)' by Lostprophets

hey,

one of my guyfrenz asked me to be his gf for real two days ago.i didn't believe him coz we used to joke bout it so much that i never thought he would actually ask me for real.i told him that i need time to think bout it coz i'm unsure of my feelings for him.he's sweet,nice and caring but at the same time,he's younger than me and he doesn't want his parents to know if we do have something.i thought about it real hard and i've decided to answer him no.i just gave my answer to him.i hope his reaction would be ok.i do not want to lose a friend and i do not want to get together with him just coz i'm lonely becoz that would be a totally wrong reason.i think i made the rite choice.i hope he really do find sum1 who loves him as much he loves that person as he really deserves sum1 like that.on another note,i have not even started my essay!!!brain totally not workin.hope ideas will come soon.anywayz,i'm hungry.anybody wanna belanja me?love you all,take care.